Now on YouTube!

While my weight loss journey is on somewhat of a hiatus and Kari is too busy raising 3 obnoxious but adorable little boys, we haven't been blogging.  I, however, have been vlogging and posting on YouTube so you should go over and check that out.  I will try to remember to post videos over here.  This is the latest Vlogs on my channel.

www.youtube.com/c/kandyfoxx

I Don't Care About My Body Anymore

I've spent my entire life being told that fat is bad and fat is wrong.  Who makes these rules?  Who says that fat is bad, wrong, unhealthy?  I know a lot of people who weigh less than me that are in much worse health.  I love my body.  I love who I am and I'm not ashamed of anything.  My mistakes have helped me along the way and my triumphs are mine.  If you don't like it, go kick rocks.  Pardon me but I don't give a flying fuck.

A few months ago I had the opportunity to have some professional photos taken.  I have not released them to any of my friends or family.  I had a guy ask to use one of them on his Facebook page about loving the SSBBW body.  (SSBBW means Super Sized Big Beautiful Woman).  Since he put it up as his profile picture I have gotten messages from family asking if I knew someone was using my image.

It's time to release a few of the "safe for work" photos.  I feel strong and beautiful in these pictures and my photographer was amazing.  So thank you David Lucero for making me feel so comfortable.

Body Positivity and the Pressure to Lose Weight

My weight has been an issue my entire life.  I was always the fat kid in school.  But it never bothered me.  I was teased a bit but I knew I was a good person.  I have heard it before but "Is fat the worst thing a person can be?"  I could be a drug dealer, a murdered, a giant asshole.  Inside, I am a great friend, a good daughter and an excellent employee.  I take care of my husband, my house, my cats and do whatever I can for my family.  So why is the one thing people remember is that I am fat?

I worked hard for 18 months to improve my health and along with that, I lost weight.  My blood sugars, blood pressure, pulse, cholesterol and heart health are all fantastic.  I work out 2 to 4 days a week and have incredible amounts of energy.  So why am I looked down on because of my weight?  Why do random people feel they can come up to me and "be concerned" about me because I am fat?  They don't know me nor my story.

I'm in the best shape and healthiest of my life.  Yet, according to standards, I am an unhealthy drain on society.  I am unable to get life insurance, I am a high risk for health insurance, and an apparent drain on society's resources.  I am unable to adopt a child because my husband and I are considered high risk.  Why?  Basically they assume we are unhealthy and will die before the child is grown up.

I work 40 hours a week, am not on any "assistance", pay all my own bills and don't ask for or get any hand outs.  But I am considered less of a person because I am fat.  Amidst even the "body positive" people, I am still considered too big.  I guess all I have to say is FUCK YOU AND YOUR STANDARDS.