Wednesday February 4th, 2015:
Yesterday I went in for some routine blood tests. My results were online this morning and I have lowered my A1C from 6.9 to 6.2 and raised my iron level from a 9 to a 22. While the iron level is still low, it is a great improvement. Small things like this give me great encouragement to keep at it. I also did my first real work out yesterday. It was nothing too strenuous but I felt really good after.
Monday February 9th, 2015:
Last week had some pretty drastic ups and downs. While the first set of test results were good, the second set was not. I am extremely vitamin deficient. My levels of Vitamin D, B-12, Iron and Calcium are so low that I am going to be on prescriptions. I will even need to take shots for the B-12 and Vitamin D. I also have extremely high levels of protein in my urine which can mean many things but the main concern is Kidney Disease. I will have to do a 24 hour collection.
I unfortunately got this news about an hour before Roger and I left to go on a 3 day trip to the beach to celebrate our 10th Anniversary. I tried to put it out of my mind but I thought about it a lot. We did have a really good time though. We got up close and personal with some deer, gambled, played at the arcade, took a walk, and went swimming. The swimming thing was such a huge deal because Roger hadn't been able to go in water for the last 3 years or so while he dealt with a wound on his leg that just wouldn't heal.
I ate pretty well on vacation but did indulge in a doughnut when we left town. It was the first sugary thing I had ate in 2 months. It wasn't as good as I remembered. We went to the grocery store on the first day so we could make sure I had some healthy snacking options. I don't know about you, but when I am on vacation, I kinda want to splurge. I was pretty proud of myself and even lost 2 lbs over the week.
Tuesday February 10th, 2015:
The struggle is real everyone. I had such an intense sugar craving today. The worst I have had since I started. I went to Safeway to buy about 6 things that we needed and they have these clearance carts in the back of the store near the milk and eggs. I got the milk and was headed towards the eggs when I zeroed in on them. They were filled with the bags of mini candies like York mini patties which are my favorite. I passed them, with my eyes glued, but then snapped out of my trance and realized I had forgotten the eggs. I had to pass the carts 2 more times to get the eggs and head back the way I was. Then, at the checkout counter, the king size candy bars were buy 2, get 2 free. It literally took me white knuckling the cart not to grab them and throw them on the conveyor belt. Once I was out of the store I sat in my car and just breathed really deep and patted myself on the back for not buying them. How is that for a glimpse inside a food addicts mind?
Thursday February 12th, 2015:
Today is our Anniversary. Roger and I have been married for 10 years. It really doesn't seem like that long. Like any marriage, we have had our struggles. The first 2 years and the last 2 years have been pretty rough. When they say marriage takes work, it really does. For us, being a couple without kids, I think it is even harder. We only have each other. There are no kids to take the focus off one another. It also causes us to get in a rut where we come home, eat dinner, watch TV and go to bed. I think that's how we both gained so much weight. We stopped doing things. We are slowly working our way out of our rut though and I look forward to many more years together.
I got my test results back from my 24 hour urine catch and my protein levels were really high. The doctor says that means my kidneys are damaged, most likely from the diabetes. What happens is the elevated sugar levels damage the nerves in the organs. The same thing can happen with high blood pressure. The course of action is to take another prescription in hopes of not causing any more damage. There is no way to reverse what has already happened. The news really sent me into a depression spin.
Why is this happening? What did I do wrong? Why all at once? They say you're never given more than you can handle so I guess I must be stronger than I think. I stowed myself away in the bedroom last night and thought about all that is going on. I kinda ruined our Anniversary plans by being in such a mood but I needed the time to process all of this. I am not good at pretending to be happy. Ask anyone who is around me a lot. I wear my emotions on my sleeve. My conclusion was that staying on the path I am on is the best way to handle this. Losing weight will help with my diabetes and then everything can trickle from there.
Friday February 13th, 2015:
I woke up this morning in a much better mood. I'm down another couple pounds and I just feel good. The sunrise on the way to work was gorgeous. I guess today I am just thankful. I am thankful for my family, my friends, my job, and my life. There are people much worse off than I am. No more pity parties for me. I am moving onward and upward. Nothing can stop me! Watch out world!
